7 Months

One month ago we moved into our new home and I couldn't be happier! Eli loves having a room completely devoted to his toys. He has space to crawl around without me having to pick him up every few seconds and place him back where he started and he is safe without the worry of shelves, books, tables, or cords to hurt himself on. Eli likes to crawl short distances but lately he will get really excited about something across the room and make this really fast, airy, excited ha ha ha sound as he speed crawls for the item (which is usually a "no" or "Eli, please don't touch - mommy doesn't need that right now" item.) Is it weird to not just say "no?" I do say no and am not afraid to say it but I feel like I'll be saying it too much and am wondering if saying it with the reason for not touching makes sense right now?! Anyway...rambling much? :P

Lately I have been very down (not quite depressed - I can still function) regarding my weight. I know that how I feel and how I look are completely on me and my lack of healthy eating and exercising. I also have been down about my lack of motivation. I can come up with a thousand reasons why I don't eat what I should and don't get outside as much as I need to but no excuse in the book is going to loose me my weight. So, I have decided to start a high protein low sugar, fat, calorie, carb diet. I also am going to treat this time like a fast (since it is a fast from the foods I used to eat) and when I feel tempted to munch or stay inside when I know I need to go for a walk or eat the carrot vs. chips, I'll pray, read, and meditate on how to keep my body as a living sacrifice. I know I should have been doing this more in the first place but there is always room for improvement and believe me, there is room!

So, why am I telling the world? Maybe so I feel a tad more guilty if I fall off the tracks and cheat but mostly so if I seem unfocused or uninterested in something you say, do, or ask, you might not take it too personally (although smack me out of it if this does happen so I can focus on those things because they are important to me). I'm going to be focusing on not eating your candy bar (or you! lol) vs. the protein bar in my hand over what shoes look better with what outfit.

Anyway, that's what is going on in this girls life right now. How is everyone's end of summer going? I have seen tons of adorable "back to school" pictures and am looking forward to Eli's first picture! :)